Serving Him by serving others

Today I am trying to focus on how I serve my God by serving others. Sometime I am so overwhelmed by the thought that I may not be doing enough! How do I know that I am making an impact on the Kingdom if I have no tangible proof. I have a difficult time wrapping my mind around what I can do to better this world. Who am I but a mama, a wifey, and a student. I clean house, change diapers, cook, volunteer at church, sing, study, and then I press repeat on my life for the next day. Sure I volunteer at the church's food bank, but I'm sure I could do more. The leaders seem to struggle to get everything done because there seems to never be enough help. But how can I do more.... Sometimes I have to think that by simply raising my children, and be a good wife HAS  to be enough.

I guess what I'm trying to say is that even though my life may look rather simple to those outside of my world I am doing my best to serve my God by serving my children and husband. I have such a sense of accomplishment when I teach my son to do something new, or I feed my daughter, or when my husband walks through the door to a calm, clean house. I want to serve Him by serving them.

Balancing it all is like juggling elephants!

Hi! I have been in school for about a month now. Sorry for ignoring you for so long but I greatly underestimaed how being a mother and a full time student would take up my time. Even though it has been difficult including tears the first week leaving my babies with my mother for several hours twice a week I am doing really well. I love being in school. I'm a nerd like that! Yesterday in my anatomy class we watched a knee replacement and I caught myself talking to the video! I am only slightly insane I promise! I only have one more class to take before I can enter the nursing program so that is when it's really going to get hard. I could wait and do it when my babies are older I just feel compelled to do it NOW. So maybe my house doesn't sparkle anymore (or maybe it ever did! lol.), so maybe we hit the drive thru more than I would like, and maybe I get even less sleep than before, but it's all worth it.

My only fear is that my kids will miss my presence when I am at school. I have been a stay at home mom since Isaac was born over three years ago. They are staying with their Nana so I know they are loved and taken care of when I am at school but a Mama always worries. I hope my kids can find strength in the fact that I am finding strength in them to pursue my dream of being a nurse. I feel so incredibly blessed to be a Mommy and a Wife and through those two roles my confidence has soared. They have allowed me to see myself in a totally different light. I am no longer afraid; I am courageous! My kids have taught me this. So maybe being a full time Mommy and full time student is like juggling elephants but I have to say I LOVE it!

God will make a way!

God has made a way! Yesterday I was full of disappointment thinking I was going to have to put my dream of being a nurse on hold again, but God has made a way. The class I needed to open up did at 2am this morning and it was quickly snatched up. So now I am on my way to earning my nursing degree, which has been my dream for many years. My class came open, my family stepped up to help me with watching my beautiful kiddos, and everything else is a leap of faith.

Today was a great day. Stressful but great. I hope to be able to balance school and being a mommy and wife. I suppose you will have to see how I handle it. But I know that me going to college is truly a miracle so I will keep you updated as I try to focus on Christ on how to better serve him this school year!

Today is a struggle...

I don't know about you but sometimes I loath having to give up certain things for my family or my God. I now it's the right thing to do or I wouldn't do it but today I was in tears because I realize that it is best for my family for me not to attend school this semester and instead take my classes this summer. I know I shouldn't feel so disappointed it just feels like I have been going to school forever and still don't have a degree to show for it.

Even though disappointment consumed me this morning I am starting to feel at peace with my decision I need to be able to take care of my daughter during her first year, we need to get our second car fixed, and the class I need isn't available. I prayed hard hoping that this class would come open and it still hasn't and I only have a few more days to sign up.

But through all of this I realize that my plan for my life is not as important as God's plan for my life. That even though I feel like a failure sometimes, I am not a failure according to my heavenly father. Sometimes I need to think about how he views me instead of how people of this world view me. I need to set my eyes steadfast to heaven not losing sight of my true purpose. The purpose of introducing as many as I can to Christ's love and living fully for him.

So today was a struggle for me in finding my servant's heart. I selfishly want to pursue my own dreams when I know they need to wait. My children and husband come first. So how do I balance it all? Not sure yet! But I am praying that God will guide me.

Simply Serving

Simply Serving....

When I think of simply serving I think of what I can can do to serve my heavenly father, my husband, my children, my church. How can I use the talents that God has given to me to enrich his kingdom. I want this blog to be about everything from my spiritual walk to how I serve my family and those around me. I have always felt like God has given me a servant's heart. I haven't always utilized it like I should but that is going to change. I hope you see this blog as a journey. A journey that hopefully will end at the entrance of the pearly gates, because until I am entering those gates I will always be seeking and serving Him.

As I think about how I serve I think of my family, and church. I serve my family by trying to live as frugally and simply as possible. I hope to future post on those things. I think of my church where I serve as the worship leader. I hope that through this year God will open up my eyes to all the things that I can do better.

So please join me on this adventure as I give it to God and let go!